the walk...hmmm, it's been interesting. it always is. things we face, things we avoid, things we can handle, things we can't. sitting in silence, i begin to pray because right now that's all i can do. it's all i've ever been able to do. He gave me what i needed...He still does. yet sometimes i wonder if walking away would just be better...to be quiet...still... i'm tired of fighting...of resisting...best to leave them be. people's words and actions may hurt us and we don't understand certain attitudes they hold...it's those we love the most that hurt us the most. we do want to try to understand. we want things to be great, and when they're not...at least according to how we expect them to be...we're left disappointed. this is reality...hard to swallow but it's true. each person brings into relationship their own brokenness. it isn't until we're able to accept them with all the scars they carry on their hearts that we'll be able to bring healing into their lives and receive healing from them as well. when we're frustrated with someone, its likely that we're saying deep down, "i can't deal with your insecurities or the pain you've been caused in your past or what you're going through now in your present. i want you to be okay for me because i need you right now." but that really isn't fair to them, as we'd feel utterly rejected if someone had voiced those thoughts to us when our own faults were openly exposed in our weakest moments. the most important thing we need to remember is that we can't change anyone but ourselves. love...hmm...i'm still learning how to give it unconditionally, but by His grace it will be possible someday.

LONGING FOR GOD
"Long to see God, fear losing God, and find joy in whatever leads to God. Do this, and you'll find great peace."- St. Teresa of Avila