"Sometimes you don't know what you're missing until you reach out to touch it. Sometimes you can't see how beautiful something is until it steps back into the light. And sometimes you miss a love you almost didn't lose. But when you need beauty, dreams and love the most you find them taken away from you. And when someone is drifting away from you, you feel it screaming inside your chest. Your heart feels numb and ignorant because the truest of love isn't easy. It's the worst thing in the world. True love breaks you, but you become real. When you are real and in love you will never be unhappy. You are only unhappy when you deny the truth held in love."- Anonymous

We all know people who are afraid of commitment...afraid of loving another person because they know in one way or another, it's going to hurt. Deep down inside, we all know what true love is supposed to be. It's about sacrifice. It's about giving up all that you hold on to for yourself and surrendering it out of love for the other person.

I've just come to realize that it's very possible to feel this way towards Jesus. But if we can bring ourselves to unreservedly place our heart in His hands, He'll change our lives forever. It's a hard thing to do because we don't know what'll happen to us. It's all over the Bible - the good fruit that'll come out of loving Him - but we're always asking ourselves, "Okay, generally for all Christians, this is good stuff...but what exactly is this going to mean for me?"

It's perfectly normal to be scared to return that kind of love to God...yet if you think about it, He actually made that kind of a sacrifice for us first...giving it all up...giving His very life...for you...for me. Heck yeah, He was scared, too, of what would happen to Him, but He did it anyway. Why? Because He was not going to rob us of experiencing the Father's great love, for it was through Jesus Christ that God the Father chose to reveal Himself to His children.

Most people wait for signs of liking/loving from another person first before making a move to advance in a relationship because they're not sure if their affection will be reciprocated. Well, in this case, God already showed us. He still does, even when we become indifferent or complacent on our end. We don't have to wait for Him...we already know. It's just up to us to see all the wonderful things He's done for us.

So guess what? A few years ago, I got to know this really great guy, Jesus. I've known Him for a long time, but it wasn't until I was in my early twenties that I finally saw Him for who He was. He'd always been there for me through the most difficult times in my life and shared the laughs and smiles during the good times. He's tried calling me a few times lately, but I've too busy to answer. Tonight, though, I decided to pick up and finally talk to Him again. I didn't say much...just listened and told Him that it was nice hearing His voice. He said He missed spending time with me, and I told Him that I was sorry for taking Him for granted. No hard feelings...there never were, at least on His part. We're starting over, and I decided to give Him another chance. Besides, I was the one who left Him time after time. His Heart hurt because of me, and He had every right to walk away...but He didn't. They call this "mercy"...another word for it is "LOVE". I don't deserve it, but to deny it would hurt Him even more. It's time to fall back into His arms again...

Ninni Quotes

"Look at, Tita B.anne...they're praying for Jesus because He got hurt...because He fell down because the cross is heavy."

Lyn-Lyn: "Where's Lolo?"
Leilani: "In Heaven with Mama Mary."
Lyn-Lyn: "Do you love Lolo?"
Leilani: "Yeah. And I love Mama Mary. How bout you, Mommy? Do you love Mama Mary?"
Lyn-Lyn: "Yes, I love Mama Mary and Jesus."
Leilani: "Me, too. I love Jesus, too."

"Look...the sky is pretty. Looks like blue windows."

"Why does your car have ears?" (pointing to the rearview mirrors yesterday when I was washing my car)

Leilani: "There was a spider in my cup."
B.anne: "Were you singing to him?"
Leilani: "Yeah."
B.anne: "What was his name?"
Leilani: "Spider."
B.anne: "Spider what?"
Leilani: "Spider Web."