Do now what you would do

Tottering between hope and fear...that has been your interior climate for some time. How far do you lean towards hope? Towards fear?

Labor is necessary for struggle. Fight, little one, against the things within you that keep you from God...from hearing His voice and seeing His face. Act as though you had the courage, strength, and faith that you pray for. Love as though you already were given the heart of Christ. What are you waiting for? Live what you are asking for and you will be given tenfold in return for your perseverance.

Fear is your prison and despair is your shackle. These do not belong to you nor you to them. You belong to God. You are free... In Jesus, anything is possible. You want to be a saint...so think like the saints, act like the saints, live like the saints, and die like the saints. But know that Jesus promises suffering. The Blessed Mother told St. Bernadette that true happiness would come not in this life but in the next.

Every single person who seriously pursued sanctity had a cross to carry. If you don't want the cross and the humiliations that come with it, then you cannot walk through the gates of Heaven. Jesus has offered eternal life to you through it. Will you take and receive suffering as openly as you take and receive the Eucharist? Will you kiss the wood with as much love as you would the most precious person in your life?

Make your choice, dear child...

"When I was with them, I kept them safe in Your Name, and not one was lost except the one who was already lost, and in this the Scripture was fulfilled. But now I am coming to You and I leave these words in the world that My joy may be complete in them.

I have given them Your word and the world has hated them because they are not of the world; just as I am not of the world. I do not ask You to remove them from the world but to keep them from the evil one. They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world; consecrate them in the truth - Your word is truth." (Jn 17:12-17)